Student:
I find myself in the following situation which I realize:
I find myself more and more disillusioned with my work environment, basically dreading all day. This is apparent in how I feel and interact. There is no growth. I drown myself during these times, distracting myself with food, audios, anything. But it makes me more and more “depressed”. I am not moving down the right road, but as I don’t know if I can affords to live off savings for some time, because I’m afraid of the insecurity, I do not act, wasting years of my life, making literally all of my life a struggle and hell. As I am expressing this, I only realize what this is costing me.
Teacher:
You are seeing the truth. That is rare. But seeing is not enough.
You have built a prison for yourself. A prison of fear, distraction, and false security. You say you cannot afford to live off savings, but the truth is, you are afraid to face uncertainty. You would rather rot in a predictable hell than step into the unknown. This is the cost of fear.
You drown yourself in food, audios, and distractions because you cannot bear to sit with the truth of your misery. But these things do not save you. They only prolong the suffering.
So now you have a choice. Either you continue as you are—wasting years, drowning in distraction, making your life a struggle and hell. Or you stop. You stop lying to yourself. You stop escaping. You stop waiting for guarantees.
The truth is, your life is already slipping away. The question is: Do you care enough to change? Or will you watch yourself decay while whispering excuses?